**Hello,
i rockk .
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5/31/08
Now that i think bout it.. i realise somethingg... i dun miss you.. i never did... i just said that cause i feel lonely in RS what.?you think im some sort of girl who's willing to do anything for a guy.. im glad i called it off.. if u were a girl i would have long time have said this to you: B-I-T-C-H What's that spell?! B-I-T-C-H I ain't liddat! B-I-T-C-H Biaaatch! Its a cheer i made up myself... i think that u shud noe that ur not great ur not that good-looking.. i think.. its just that when we were in gwps u were such a hot spott... soo naturally,girls are attracted to you.. but now that im in RS.. ive learnt a lot of things.. and you know what?? half of the guys in my class are better than you.. they are not self-centered they are not snobs... Goodness,how can i be soo stupid?? i laugh seyy when i think bout what i did in gwps.. do you noe that before i met you, i gawt first in class? But when i noe you,my grades started to slip away... I gawt my first C in primary 5! the year i looked after that rascal class of yours... Eh im soo blind lahh in gwps... i hate to think i wasted my primary school life on someone like you... but then,its soo hard to look at ur flaws when my eyes is blinded by love... soo now..i guess im more mature.... soo get this straight hah.. the last time we chatted in MSN,i said i miss you right.. WELL I DON'T! Im glad i called whatever we had between us THEN over.. Cause if i hadnt,i would be crying right now, looking at your friendster! 5/27/08 Oh oh so i guess i cheered up Hey what makes u guys think im angry and sad cause of a guy? Please,i dun get sad cause of a guy.. ok well,except for him..hes different.. i guess my life's better now... im aching for my oldd school... the last day of school was horrible... the class made miss faz cry... and mr foo had to come in to the class and tell us off but still,im proud of jin xuan and the other who acknoledged their mistake and actually stood up for them.. all except for Hasyim.. really,if u think it wasnt ur fault why bother to stand up? im disappointed..greatly.. I really pity miss faz... she has teached us for 5 months1 and that is how we repay her..? she has tolerated with our nonsense.. and that is how we repay her? by making her cry? really i think as a class,we should pull our act together cause we're starting to hurt people... 5/22/08 My world is crumbling.. i donoe why... everything is soo bad now... theres just soo many things and soo little time.. i feel like quitting school.. i feel like stuffing myself with panadols.. i feel like mutating myself... i feel like killin myself... its just soo difficult now.. i failed maths by one mark.. and my dad have not been told.. oh gawd...everything is just soo bad.. i wanna die..honestly.. im soo scared of eveything now.. and i donoe how to let it all out.. crying??thats what im doing.. shouting??i don't think it helps.. u tell me agh,even if i do all this shit,my problems still there rite? omg,i niddd Crystal...i love her man.. shes soo sympathetic... i feel soo badd.... i donoe what to do... in secondary school rite now, i dun really have a close friend... i dun have a confidante... why did all these things happen in secondary school life... i studied more.. i made more,much more good deeds.. i dun have a boyfriend... im decent as can be!!! why can like this.... Are You There God?Its Me, Maizurah.Will You Please Help Me Out? 5/13/08 Ok ok fine.....the blog's dead.....but not my fault k....im not the computer freak like zul...ok well..a lot of things happened....i dunnoe where to start...i chatted with him today...starting to miss him again...its like...my heart cant seem to forget him......but i donoe..he sort of change...me and him are kinda an old story...hes kinda one in a million...he's great...my love,i miss you. ok wateverrr....soo enough bout him...post exams activities start tomorrow and im sure it'll be stupid..sex ed..??PLEASE!i dun like it when people talk bout it....its disgusting,and i know i sound vulnerable............ |
I'm single, but never available. I don't smoke, Neither do i drink. I'm just the party cracker. I make things hot .  |